Thursday, December 20, 2012

The Magic of Christmas

It might seem weird to most people, but to me, this Christmas seems very different. I can't really explain it.  I'll take the rest of this post to elaborate and talk through why I feel this way....


I'm reminded of the day I gave my life to Jesus. It was a warm June Day in 2010 and I was at an all-time low. When I prayed to Jesus, I remember crying to Him saying, "I have nothing to give you except my broken heart, but I know I need you and I want you here." This past Sunday, the band was singing a rock version of The Little Drummer Boy and the line "I have no gifts to bring (pa rum pum pum pum) That's fit to give our King" made me lose it!  I'm humbled how God took a broken, bruised heart and redeemed it into a loving heart full of joy.  Only God could have done that, and it never would have been possible unless He gave his only Son to be born into this imperfect world to die for my sins....

Since Bobby and I are in the adoption process, this Christmas could be the last one we celebrate as just "us".  Our anniversary is tomorrow and a few days later, we will be celebrating our 2nd Christmas together, but first "real" Christmas. Last year, we were still getting settled and wrapping up our elopement chaos.  This year, we have our tree, family, new traditions, etc. that we got to experience and create together.  When our child comes into our life, we will be creating even more traditions. The anticipation of getting our child makes me empathize with Mary, Joseph, and the people waiting on the prophesy to be fulfilled. They were waiting in anticipation for the Messiah to come. Little did they know it would come in the most humble of places...

The Christmas Spirit is all around us, turning Scrooges into Saints and Grinches into Givers.  My heart is so full and soft that I never want this feeling to leave. I think this is the first time (in a very long time) that I'm excited for Christmas and the magic it brings. 

If I don't get to talk to you before the 25th, Merry Christmas!


Friday, December 7, 2012

The Stockings were hung on the bookshelf with care...

...in hopes that my sanity will soon re-appear! HA!

 I sent out the Christmas cards and the shopping is done. I think. I keep forgetting that my anniversary is coming BEFORE Christmas, and coincidentally, it is the same day the world is going to end. Awesome!

Please know, I am not paranoid at all about December 21st. I find it funny that the world is freaked out... Just like y2k....

 I have 100% peace in my heart that Jesus is going to come back when HE is good and ready, and not a day sooner.

So back to Christmas.

This is also finals week for my online menagerie of Grad classes. I have four papers due within the next, oh, 5-48 hours. Do I have any of them started? Nah. I work well under pressure. :P

 Christmas this year is taking on a brand new meaning. I was in the wonderful Wally World and found a recordable story book and stopped to look at it. Long story short, it was a Disney Christmas book that rhymed and was super cute. It goes through their "Christmas list" and had corny things like "I want something warm this holiday, so I want your warm hugs..." yadda yadda yadda... so at the end, I start crying because it goes on to say that more importantly than anything else, I just want to spend Christmas with you.

 Cue the waterworks.

 I'm so ready for children. I can feel it. I know once the homestudy is started and completed, it will not be long until we have a special someone to bring home. I'm getting impatient.